I want to believe that there is more than this -
I am trying.
It is undeniable that light, warmth, and love follow me wherever the River takes me
it is undeniable that I am alive; I am breathing - I am feeling.
One could observe my life and call it fortunate, blessed, and perhaps, even lucky. Which, I deny none.
I am aware, every single day how blessed I am. God is amazing - beyond amazing.
I suppose, there are just heavy rapids in my River that I have yet to master
I swim, I float, and I sink
That's the issue though. I sink; the water becomes brutal and I allow it to take me under....
saying how human I am would justify this, it would excuse my unwillingness to fight the current.
As if the rapids don't push me around enough - a wake-up call is anticipated
I am just tired of swimming in my River....
when will I reach land?
