I've been neglecting my blog these past few days - for I have not been feeling, inspiring, amorous, or incandescent. But I realize now, our darkest moments can also be inspiring. Maybe, not in the aspect of feeling, "On top of the world" - but coming to senses, that life isn't always going to be rainbows and unicorns, and accepting that it's totally okay to not be okay.
Those pictures above are of my healthy lifestyle. This blog is also a part of that. Meaning, to not do anything reckless with my time, I've turned to exercise, eating healthier, reading, writing, appreciating the outdoors, and surrounding myself with individuals who genuinely care about me and want what's best for me.
I am the type of person who, if not preoccupied with some sort of hobby, will turn into an absolute goblin because my thoughts will somehow get the best of me. Despite, that circumstances aren't ideal for me at the time being, I am trying my hardest to make the most out of everything. Lately, negative feelings seem to win - but as I tend to always say, 'Love always conquers in the end.' Which is true. It's entirely easy to get caught up in all the mayhem and forget that you're surrounded by all of these beautiful blessings. I would know, I constantly fixate on what I should be doing or what I could be doing, and how life really should be... it's terrible. But I have all of these awesome things and people to turn to, so my days are becoming less and less gloomy. : )
God has been such an important role in my life as well. I am not involved in church as I'd like to be, but He is my best-friend, my confidant, my number one in everything. I feel Him tell me to hold on, to keep fighting, and to be patient above all. For someone like me, patience isn't easily embraced. I like to see results as soon as possible - but if all was that easily manifested - it wouldn't be worth it. and I hold on to that. After all, I am only 18 years old; my entire life is still ahead of me. God knows what He's doing... so, I must stay calm, collected, positive, and continue to trust in His plans for me.
