There are moments where I just don't want anything to do with anyone. I don't want to be nice, I don't want to smile, I don't want to have to explain my sudden bitter behavior - I just want to be and not have it be questioned, or looked down on. I think I've driven so many people away because for so long, I was the "cheerful, always inspirational, always let's be positive, go-happy" girl, and when I turned that off for the first time, and accepted that life isn't always rainbows and butterflies - everyone was just like, 'wait! woah! I don't like this Brizzy' which is all a little frustrating. I haven't turned into some "apathetic, you don't matter" person... I've just realized that it's completely okay to accept that, at times, we're allowed to be in the moment of our emotions and feelings.
