The past five years has both sped away and slowly drifted along. One thing is certain, I couldn't have experienced what I experienced without Lauren and Marina by my side. These two gals have seen me grow up in ways no one has been able to. I am tough to crack; I don't easily let people in, and I have a hard time being vulnerable. Which, at times leads me astray from many people I've befriended. Somehow, these two gals just stick along. I don't know how, or why, but they've chosen to stay. I've realized, life can present you with all these shiny diamonds that seem genuine and beautiful -- but at the end of the day, the few pebbles that weren't as shiny or demanded prove to be rare, solid, and comforting. I am grateful for the people God has placed in my life (yes, even the ones no longer present) They've all molded me, shaped my heart, and helped further my personal understandings. I have undoubtedly been blessed with some of the greatest individuals.... I don't think I could ever regret any of the moments (good or bad). I hoard my memories; there's no letting them go.
Though, I wish I could keep all the individuals I've grown to love and care for, in a safe haven - so we don't ever have to part...I know "sometimes love is not enough, and the road gets tough.. I don't know why" As Lana Del Rey would sing it. So, I understand when certain aspects of ones life can't remain infinite. It's unnerving and heartbreaking and overwhelming, but I'm learning and growing and forever appreciating. I am just eternally thankful that after half a decade, Lo and Mina are Here.
This post jumps from one thought to another and doesn't at all flow.... but these are my early thoughts.
