Love, Inspiration, and a Little Sunshine (Day 3)

"I hate Valentine's"

Oh, Valentine's Day..... a day beyond mortifying to the single folk. What do they call it? 'Single Awareness Day' ? Interesting, and totally true to those who allow themselves to sulk and be irrevocably somber. I am talking about myself. Weeks before this special, love-fest day, I told myself I wouldn't be phased; February 14th was just going to be another day (except, more pink, chocolate-y, and PDA prone). I woke up in a fantastic mood, prayed to my dear Lord and told Him that I was going to make an effort to make others' smile on this day. Weeeeeeeell, turn of plans. It's incredible how quickly one's mood can change from, 'sweet' to 'bitter.' Home wasn't particularly inviting this morning. People were yelling, problems were arising, and I was left thinking....welp! this is unfortunate... a day of love has started as a day of sad. I stayed put in my bed for a good hour just thinking of every possible negative reality of mine. And needless to say, my day was full of unexpected, water falls. I had to put myself together and get ready for my acting class - I was going to get my little monologue done with, not communicate with anyone, and get the heck out. Does this story sound too depressing? I promise, it'll lighten up. :-) Though, I do recall, a complete stranger telling me I was pretty on my way out. Which was entirely uplifting and much needed. Nice people still exist! ha!

Anyway, as my day progressed, I started growing even more sad - reason being, no one, not even my family members or any close friends had wished me a simple, "Happy Valentine's!" Usually, I do the honors of sending everyone tiny text messages of that sort on Holiday's or just random days.... I am a person who genuinely loves making people feel appreciated. But today, I decided I'd stay quiet and say nothing to no one, if they weren't going to say anything to me. (yeah, I was being a brat - But hey! I was having the worst day.... I have an excuse....) I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want chocolates or cute bears or pretty roses....nothing. I was angry, upset, and sad. It was as if I willingly turned into a ghost - I just didn't want to be around, have anyone be able to talk to me, or anything of that sort. Today was just one of those days. 

As night came along, I decided to eat some food (I deprived myself of it, all day! bad me, I know...) and my father came home from work. My lovely father, comes up to me, gives me a huge hug, says I love you and as I walk into my room, a cute set of pink roses, and a box of Butterfinger bites are waiting for me. My sadness automatically turned into happiness, light, and appreciation. THESE little moments, with the people who love you on your worst days is what makes today so so special and wonderful. My father didn't have to buy me those things, but he did it, because he loves me. And far too many times, I take that for granted. Like today, I completely disregarded that one, most important detail of all. My best friend, Lauren couldn't have said it better: "On days like Valentine's Day, we forget that love isn't just a romantic emotion. Sure, that is the most recognizable form of it...but it really isn't the most important. Love makes us feel important, light on our feet, and new again." 

It's so true. Society has gotten the world all fixated on Valentine's solely being for lovers. No. On a day, like today, we're celebrating 'love' in its entirety. We're celebrating all of our loved ones, and letting them know just how special they make our lives (which, we should do on a daily basis) but we emphasis this a tad more on February 14th. Which is very neat. It's refreshing to see how creative people get! 

Whether, you spent today alone, with your best-friends, your family, or your significant other - always be aware of how much love surrounds you. I went on feeling so unappreciated, alone, forgotten, and without hope. It is when, my dad reminded me that I am far from any of those - that I woke up and was like, 'hey Brizzy...snap out of it!' and If you were alone, I hope you can celebrate yourself and your awesome-ness. Our love for ourselves if even more important than the love others have for us. 

Happy Valentine's Day! Xo

Here's a song to make you smile - 

"On Top Of The World" by Imagine Dragons